now I know

There’s a lot of power in an idea. It’s the seed that’s planted in the back of your subconscious. I was listening to someone recently who said that everything you have now once started as an idea and my heart fluttered.

Everything I have now was once a thought.

There’s quite a bit of power in that realization. Do you feel it when you read that? There’s a lot of grounding in that statement. It makes me feel like the universe is grabbing my shoulders and saying “Sit down, shut up and look up”.

Look up at what you have.

Look at what you earned.

I tried to adapt an idea recently and I missed a step. When I made the effort to resolve my misstep and make up for my lack of due diligence, I was still met with challenges. Frustrations. Feelings of guilt and shame and naivety.

Two years ago, I would’ve spiralled. Sobbed. Analyzed. Obsessed. Repeat.

Up until three months ago where I spiralled and sobbed and did the whole routine until my heart finally drained. Only then did the wisdom finally download.

Mistakes are not the enemy.

I’m so comfortable with them. My mistakes sit with me like a loving mother and remind me that I’m doing the best I can.

You can make a mistake, fix it, and forgive yourself. It’s allowed. I actually highly encourage it,

I used to beg for forgiveness from people who didn’t know how to give it. I have to tell you- it’s a lot more fulfilling to just forgive yourself . The other guy isn’t always going to say they forgive you. So stop expecting it.

Love yourself enough to forgive yourself for missteps.

Then light a joint, lean back and move onto the next life lesson.

Now I know, and so I grow.

I’ve got seeds to plant.